It’s all Chiara, all the time.

  • Whichever Comes First

    I’m spending my last evening of being thirty-five sitting on the couch drinking tea and chatting on and off with my mom as we pack up for our trip to Golden Bay tomorrow. We just got back from Rotorua last night, where we saw some geothermic activity, had a hangi, saw a kiwibird, all the…

  • Each Step Again

    Slowly, a little earlier every night, it’s getting darker—but not yet, not tonight. It’s still light, and warm outside from what I can tell from the other side of this window. Sitting in an old Fat Freddy’s Drop shirt and ill-fitting leggings, home sick for the second day in a row. I don’t know exactly…

  • Christchurch Earthquake

    Christchurch had another earthquake today—for you non-Kiwis, they had what was supposed to be the Big One, in September, and they’ve juuust started rebuilding. We heard about it at work and watched some of the footage, before anyone knew what was going on in terms of deaths or injuries, and it was already pretty brutal—Christchurch…

  • Amazing Thing

    I don’t know why I was thinking about this the other day—I was at the rockpools at Island Bay with some buddies after doing Frocks On Bikes—but for some reason I had this very visceral memory of something we used to do in my secret club I was in as a kid. It was called…

  • No Real Goals

    I made a savings goal today—one I made several months ago and promptly unmade five minutes later by putting down the bond on this house and then immediately buying Malaysia tickets. This goal was pretty arbitrary and isn’t really enough to do anything but get me a couple months expenses if, heaven forbid, I was…

  • Cambodia And Malaysia: Bits And Bobs

    I’m thinking about a lot of stuff lately—well, Egypt, obviously, and #dearjohn, and this huge hurricane in Queensland, and all sorts of other things happening in my friend groups in all hemispheres everywhere. I just signed up for a circus class and I’m going to be a maid of honour for the sixth time in…

  • Stuff I Ate In Malaysia And Cambodia

    More trip stuff. January is almost over and you have no idea of any of the other things I’ve been doing—don’t lie to me, I know you have been staring off into the distance when you should have been working, wondering if I’d been wine camping this month or if I’d been back to yoga…

  • Cambodia: Siem Reap and Angkor Wat

    It’s been several weeks since I got back from the trip, now, and it’s getting harder to remember it; like, I know I went, I know I was there (it was only a couple weeks ago!) but I feel like I’ve told all the stories and put away all the souvenirs and just slipped effortlessly…

  • Cambodia: Phnom Penh and Kep

    From Kota Kinabalu I flew to Phnom Penh, Cambodia, to meet up with my friend Katherine. Kat and I went to college together (I told a friend of hers that I ‘knew her from the nineties’) and I hadn’t seen her for four years, since our going-away parties when she was on her way to…

  • Malaysia: Borneo Dive Trip

    One of the funnier things about this trip was that I was either with a local friend who spoke the language and would take me to cool places, with whom I would have these very long and intense conversations, or I was super touristy and super on my own. I like both of those things,…

  • Malaysia: Melaka and Kuala Lumpur

    This time last week I think I would have been on the plane to Melbourne from Kuala Lumpur already, wearing my maxi dress and fuzzy socks that I now always bring with me on planes, watching 90s movies and zoning out but not falling asleep. I’ve been back home almost a week now and thought…

  • Everything Right Where It Belongs

    I got home from Malaysia yesterday around seven, on a perfectly blue and gold Wellington evening, coming down through the clouds over the harbour. I’d spent almost twenty-four hours in transit, on various types of public transport and on planes and in airport lounges and I was so tired and dirty and all I wanted…

  • See What I Can See

    It’s a gorgeous Christmas Day in Wellington: sun is shining, birds singing, all of that. My bag is packed, my house is clean, and all there is left to do is skype my various family members on the other side of the world, put on my travel outfit, and get on the first of three…

  • That’s How These Stories Go

    One time, about a year ago, I was sitting at a café with five other women, and I don’t know how we got on the subject, but because I can ruin any social gathering, we started talking about sexual assault. About rape. I talked about some statistics and said—I still don’t know why we were…

  • Atomic

    I was in the mood to go out on Saturday night. I’ve been very busy socially lately but it’s hasn’t been the going out kind of social, if that makes sense; like I go to a lot of dinners and shows and house parties and things like that—sometimes even events–and I have people over to…

  • She Knows

    This time last week my friend Calin and her (and now my as well) awesome friend Susan were staying with me here in my little flat, as part of a stop on this awesome Antipodean horse-riding tour they were on together. Wellington put on quite a show for them, being all sunny and lovely and…

  • November 2010 Books

    November 1 The Voyage of The Narwhal by Andrea Barrett My boxes of books from August continue to provide me with excellent re-reads, this being way way up there on the list. You guys, this book…this story…I mean Andrea Barrett does what she does so right and I’m always really made when I come to…

  • Long Light Days

    How I–snap! click! pop!—went, with what feels like no transition whatsoever, from staying home every night, not even going to yoga, to double-booking every weekend and having to schedule nights off from social stuff, is anyone’s guess, but all of a sudden all my conversations are about how I can make it to this one…

  • Soft Grey

    It’s cool and rainy and a little grey right now as I write this, but spring grey, soft grey; not the intractable closed-down iron of the winter that’s finally dripped and dragged to an end. Earlier it was short-sleeves-and-sandals weather, and I didn’t even need a hoodie as I got the season’s first cheap red…

  • Somewhere Else I’ve Never Been

    I just bought the last of the four internal flights I’ll take during my upcoming trip to Southeast Asia, from Siem Reap in Cambodia to Kuala Lumpur in Malaysia. I’m going for just a little over two weeks, and I leave on Christmas Day. Something I notice as I get older is that I vacillate…

  • October 2010 Books

    October 1 Love In The Time of The Cholera by Gabriel Garcia Marquez How many times have I read this? This is from the box of books I had sent from Seattle, which makes it likely that it’s my high school copy. On the front page my name is written and that of my best…

  • Tonga: Doing A Lot Of Nothing and Getting Home

    Whale swimming was probably the big huge major thing we did on the trip, the thing we talked a lot about and thought a lot about. We laughed a little, later, when we realized how actually active we’d been on our beach holiday, suiting up and getting on boats right after breakfast, when mainly we’d…

  • Tonga: Whale Swimmin’

    One of the many nice things about planning this trip (other than the decision to hold Bikini Meetings) was the happy discovery that we’re all dive certified, and that Tonga, has, like, coral reefs. Our mission was clear. We did four dives over two days and some snorkeling as well. The last time I tried…

  • Tonga: Getting There And Some Tapa Cloth

    Okay, this is turning out to be a monster of a post so I am going to split it up a bit. I don’t know if anyone cares about the kind of airplane we went on from Nuku’alofa to Ha’apai, but if you do? This post is for you! Well. You know how excited we…

  • T-O-N-G-A

    I’m going to the Kingdom of Tonga tomorrow evening after work with my friends Rachel and Angela. I have hauled out my old green pack and filled it with jandals and togs and sunnies and a lavalava. Our snorkel with humpback whales is all booked (which we hope the whales have been informed of). I…

  • This, Here, Now

    Yesterday I didn’t have yoga after work and I also didn’t have any food in the house. A quick perusal of the produce section at New World indicated that broccoli was expensive but that asparagus was (kind of) cheap because we’re finally getting into spring, and then in a flash I recalled that I had…

  • September 2010 Books

    I don’t even know what to say about reading this month—I guess obviously I was moving and felt like I didn’t have enough time, even though I always seem to have time to read the internet, hmmm, and then I sort of read some Italian fairy tales for a week or so but I didn’t…

  • Just A Nice Weekend

    Friday night I walked home after work and waited anxiously for my new stove to be delivered. All the appliances in this flat are hilarious for their own various reasons, but the stove was not funny at all because a) all its various temperature markings had been worn away so you just sort of had…

  • We’re Not Talking About It

    We put Theresa on the plane to Melbourne yesterday—two carloads of friends. She’s doing a working holiday visa there for a year, after two years in Wellington, and I don’t think any of her friends have completely absorbed that she’s gone yet; we joked about getting tickets to Auckland and continuing the party up there…

  • Turning Out To Be A Big Deal

    The stove doesn’t work—I’ve tried out all the burners and they get sort of lukewarm for a while, enough to almost boil water for pasta, but then they just shut off randomly. One of the windows sticks. There’s a washer from 1982 but no dryer. The bedroom closet door draaaaags across the carpet. The curtains…

  • Wait Till You Get All Your Stuff In

    The good thing about having a very immediate-yet-mostly-dealable crisis is that it focuses all your nervous energy into a very specific direction: Do This Thing, Now. Make It Happen. Make It Work. The night sweats and the upset stomach and the inability to concentrate all of a sudden have a reason and a purpose: I…

  • Crying In August

    I did so much crying in August. I did lots of different of kinds: the kind where you can’t get out of bed and have to remember to drink water at hourly intervals to replenish your vital fluids; the kind where you start sobbing at work; the kind where you weep silently on the bus…

  • July and August 2010 Books

    August has been a very rough month for me: it started out so rough that I completely forgot to post what books I read in July, and has continued on rough-ish (with the bright spot of my books from Seattle arriving, woo!) Anyway, here’s what I’ve been reading for the last two months, and here’s…

  • Boxes Of Books

    When I was in Seattle in the Northern Hemisphere summer of 2008, I got rid of something like three hundred books which my buddies at the Blue House in Ballard had been storing for me in three identical IKEA bookcases (I had another one upstairs in the cloud room, also full to bursting) along with…

  • Four Year Anniversary

    It’s four years exactly today since I first came to Wellington, coming from Napier on the Intercity Bus, waiting to meet Deirdre at the station with my big green backpack. That was so long ago. For my one-year anniversary in 2007 I was in Australia, not even paying attention, and for my two year I…

  • There Is No Requirement To Still Your Mind

    The yoga teacher seems to want to touch the American a lot in class tonight. She doesn’t correct or realign her, she just lays her hands on lightly, gently, softly: spread-out fingers in down dog, shoulders in Warrior II, the small of the back in child’s pose. She can tell, thinks the American, lowering down…

  • Sunday Night

    You told yourself you were going to scale back from social stuff this weekend but you’ve been out every night all the same. Brunch and lunch and coffees and dinners, lots of friends, lots of talking. Lots of texting and running around. You are home only to sleep and to throw your clothes in the…

  • My Imaginary Boyfriend

    Saturday morning, Chiara and her flatties lay around the lounge discussing their respective Friday nights they wait for a load of firewood to arrive, which they will have to lug up four flights of muddy slippery steps if they want to stay even slightly warm for the next eighteen months of Wellington’s winter. Outside, it…

  • Closure

    There was one (okay, more than one) time in my wasted youth where I would regularly get calls from weepy friends and I’d drop whatever I was doing and be all “I’m on my way!” and hop in the car with a breakup CD and extra padding on my shoulders, ready to rumble. Everyone is…

  • Squeeze

    Things go quick or they don’t go at all, these days. I’m never at home anymore, there’s never enough time to do anything like grocery shopping or laundry or reading or writing blog posts or anything, because either I’ve got dinner with one friend or dinner with another friend or easy-ish yoga or really hard…

  • July 2010 Books

    June 7 The Dispossessed by Ursula K LeGuin I am not in the mood to do anything new, lately, and I also feel like I have been reading some crappy-ish books, so I am re-dedicating myself to some old favorites this month. I grabbed this out of the library before going away for a long…

  • Pompeii To Paris

    I met the beautiful and talented Leimomi last year at the Pride and Prejudice and Zombies ball, which she brilliantly organized and at which I discovered a predilection for wearing top hats and frock coats. We became Facebook friends, as you do, and saw each other at parties and whatnot, always very enjoyably; we may…

  • St. Swithin’s Day

    Thinking back now I suppose you were just stating your views What was it all for For the weather or the battle of Agincourt And the times that we all hoped would last Like a train they have gone by so fast And though we stood together at the edge of the platform We were…

  • Winter’s Here

    I am sitting our lounge in front of the fire; the flatties have mentioned something about it’s being ‘too warm’ in here but I have had—wearing yoga pants, two long-sleeved shirts, a pink fur-lined hoodie, and pink fur-lined slipper boots—to disabuse them of the notion that there can ever be such a thing as ‘too…

  • Back From The Weekend

    Towel-dry your hair and put on a singlet, thick socks, a shirt and two jumpers, shivering in your unheated room. Wrap your neck in your biggest scarf and pull your hat down over your ears, pull on your new mittens and be late for the bus, head down into the rain. Look at the different…

  • Pancakes

    At yum cha on a rainy Saturday afternoon… CHIARA:…yeah, so—sorry, can I have one of those sticky rice things?—we have this rule in the house, now. You know how we’re all lonely spinsters, all three of us? Well, we decided that if anyone ever brings someone home, she has to cook pancakes the next morning…

  • May 2010 Books

    May 3 Window Licking in the City of Love by Jennifer Maxwell What’s going on here? Some sort of rich couple where she’s a writer and he’s a self-help dude who does sculpture and they have a son in France and she lost her virginity in the seventies to some guy who’s now a conservative…

  • Sunday Afternoon Amaretti

    All week I’ve been thinking I wanted to bake some cookies. I was having some American-style oatmeal-raisin fantasies and duly gathered up the rolled oats and the brown sugar and whatnot—but with one thing and another I never got around to it. As in life, so in baking, I guess, and I munched on my…

  • In The Middle

    She missed the twilight while she was at the store, wandering around the aisles sort of dazed, trying to remember if they are out of milk at the house, if she needs more ravioli or feta cheese. The winter’s held off the last couple of weeks—she’s been trying to spin out wearing her cute new…

  • Pendulum

    The last big Italian lunch I went to was for my own birthday; so I was really looking forward to the one this afternoon. May has been surprisingly still and calm and warm and every morning when I’ve hopped out the door and run down the 38923892 stairs to the street I’ve looked out the…

  • At The Ceilidh

    Last night I went to a ceilidh (pronounced ‘cay-lee’), a Scottish country dance, with many delightful buddies. I had never been to one before and wasn’t quite sure what to expect. I mean, I knew there would be kilts, but that was about it. It was at a little social hall in Newtown and they…

  • No Space

    It’s so hard to concentrate, lately. I will try to say an ordinary sentence, like, “Hey, I really like otters,” or “Goodness me I am concerned about that Gulf Coast spill,” and I’ll get about two-thirds of the way through before just AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH comes out in a long low keening wail. I’ve got work trouble,…

  • April 2010 Books

    April 6 2010 Changing my mind: occasional essays by Zadie Smith I broke a rule I have for this book, and that is: don’t pay for library books, because library books are supposed to be free. But I was in the library and saw this in the New Releases section and it’s five dollars for…

  • Ash Cloud

    They’re still in the information-gathering stage after an hour or two’s delay at the airport—she’s taken the afternoon off work, just to be able to spend as much time with him as possible before he leaves and before she seriously considers that really, she might not ever see him again, she really really might not…

  • Popular

    Yesterday I had the day off because I was at a hui in Te Kuiti all weekend; one of my flatmates and I took the opportunity to stack this winter’s firewood and then we went to see my friend Tom speak at Pecha Kucha. Tomorrow night I am meeting Giulia for coffee and then going…

  • Digging

    What happens—one of the things that happens—is that after a while your heart gets buried. You are the one who buries it. The screaming’s been screamed and the tears have been cried, and there’s really nothing left to do but to dig up the cold wet earth and tamp it back down again, grim and…

  • Easter Easter Kayak Kayak

    I’d been talking with Theresa, kind of randomly, about taking a trip together somewhere for Easter weekend this year, without coming to much of a decision. I wanted to go to the top of the South Island, maybe to Shambhala again or something, but tickets to Takaka were sort of expensive and they close for…

  • March 2010 Books

    March 3 The Year of the Flood by Margaret Atwood This is a bit of a cheat because I got this from my mom (in hardback!) for Christmas and read it on the million-year journey from Wellington to Hahei, during which I thanked heaven multiple times that I had it with me during my multiple…

  • Only If It’s Not Fun

    Between getting new flatmates and getting sick and having a birthday and all sorts of other things, I haven’t been to my tribal bellydance class for almost a month. I was determined to make it this week, the fact that I got home at 3:00 on Sunday morning, the very same Sunday morning that would…

  • 35 = Great

    My birthday weekend was so good that I had one of the several cakes people made for me for breakfast today just because I felt like it. I’m sort of sniffly and snuffly and had to skip yoga tonight so I could come straight home and make soup for dinner, but I am still basking…

  • Cicek Satin Al

    Cicek Satin Al

  • Sick In Bed

    Sick in bed for a day and a half, in a way I haven’t been since the Bush Administration. Tired and sore and achey and shaky, sweating through the sheets, sweating through my purple octopus shirt, dazed and dehydrated, staring at nothing. The last time I was this sick I was in my mother’s house…

  • February 2010 Books

    February 1 2010 Birthday Stories edited by Haruki Murakami This is a set of stories all about, yes, birthdays. They’re all stories in English that were translated into Japanese, but re-issued again in English. I thought this was a pretty good way to organize an anthology, especially because Haruki decided to write little musing English-teacher…

  • Carrying Me

    The bay heaves and surges, flexes its muscles but never breaks into waves; the clouds filter the evening’s light whitely, greyly, into the fading hills. I look out the window at the smudged harbour, tired from yoga, tired from my week. Looking forward to dinner and bickies and bed. Mist gauzes over the open mouth…

  • Switching Up

    Right after we all got back from Christmas and New Year’s my very lovely flattie gave us some simultaneously awesome and awful news: she was moving out. Awesome: she’s moving in with her fantastic boyfriend! Awful: she’s leaving us! I had a couple days to wrap my mind around that, thinking about the hassle of…

  • Yoga

    I had a good yoga class tonight, lots of hip openers, which I love, and my sore toe (which I totally blame on last year’s extraordinarily expensive high-heeled boots) wasn’t too bad. I like the studio I go to and I like the teachers and I like stretching and breathing, so I’ve been trying to…

  • Sevens Weekend 2010

    Yesterday was pretty exciting because not only was it Waitangi Day and good old Sevens, it was also like the one day of summer that we have in Wellington per year, and when I say that I mean that that’s what they were actually saying on the news, like, “Summer to fall on weekend this…

  • January 2010 Books

    Aaaaaaages ago I decided to track what I read every month, kind of just for fun. I did it for a year, during which I read something like a hundred and eleven books, and then when I started backpacking in 2006 I was all “I have no time to record my reading! I am living…

  • Watching And Listening

    Thursday night I went to see Neko Case at the good old San Francisco Bath House, scene of many fun times over the past couple of years. It’s a pretty small place but I’ve seen some very good shows there–Kristen Hersh in 2007 springs to mind, for example, plus lots of local stuff. I was…

  • Summer Concert

    You have been going to the summer garden concerts since you first arrived in this city: as you walk down from the cable car along the path to the soundshell you think about the night you first thought you might like to stay for longer than a year. So many memories, now, as you search…

  • This Year’s Summer

    It’s been pretty awful weather since I got back from Golden Bay, as in it’s currently 54 degrees (Fahrenheit, that’s 12 for everyone else) outside, in the middle of what’s supposed to be summer, and it’s raining sideways and the wind is whipping the tree branches against my window in such a manner that suggests…

  • My Theory

    Here’s my theory, I told her. My theory is that everyone has, like, a core, you know, like they have a part of themselves that no one and nothing touches. That no one will ever touch, or even see, or even know about. With you so far, she said. I worried I was sounding a…

  • New Year’s In Golden Bay

    I had only about twelve hours in Wellington between the Coromandel and going down to Golden Bay, where I hadn’t been since the tail end of my South Island trip in 2008. I was very keen to return to my beloved Shambhala because…well because my last New Year’s Eve was not that great, to be…

  • Natale A Coromandel

    I just got home from my summer holidays last night and it’s been a bit of a shock to be back in Welly, to say the least. Today it’s been all awful and stormy and sideways-rainy and I couldn’t sleep and I had to do a bunch of washing and food-getting and every time I’ve…

  • Time To Go

    Last night we all went to the Wellington International Ukulele show at San Francisco Bathhouse and got home ever so slightly late for a Sunday night, after much singing along to “Africa” and “Sweet Child O’Mine” (works surprisingly well as a happy cheery folky song) and everyone’s favorite “Heartache”. This morning when I got into…

  • The Realization Of Desire

    I leave in a couple of days for my summer holidays (and of course it’s still winter weather in Wellington, of course it is) and have been busy with many parties and much wrapping-things-up with work and much trying to see everyone before I leave for the usual lunches and coffees and dinners. I’ve been…

  • Down From The Mountain

    In the course of a series of emails this week I sent a friend a link to this old entry (I still call them “entries”), and he sent back some very nice compliments. Is it true, he asked, is all of it true. The mountain, the kiss, the fireworks in the background on the Fourth…

  • Rotorua Road Trip

    I was couching it all in super generous terms—my friend Eric from the States is in Wellington for a couple of months, and I was all like, “Girl, your experience of the North Island should not be limited to Cuba Street!”—but really I was feeling a bit restless and wanting to get out of town.…

  • Timing

    We had to read Sense And Sensibility in high school but I didn’t think much of it at the time; it wasn’t until I was in college that I actually LOLed at Emma and then proceeded to devour Jane Austen’s other books in a matter of a couple of very happy weeks. I have deep…

  • Trying To Dissolve

    There are six or seven things I’ve been thinking about lately and meaning to write about here (Pride and Prejudice, my heterosexual life partners, the end of crappy ol’ 2009, how my hair lady gave me this weird winged mullet with which I am having a hard time coming to terms) but there’s no time,…

  • Art’s Hopeful Sickroom

    Friday evening I was invited to aperitivo, like after-work drinks for Italians, at the studio of someone I know through my friend Giulia and also from Facebook. I wasn’t quite sure what this was all about, exactly: what kind of studio was it? Who would be there? What sort of a snack situation were we…

  • Home Alone On Sunday Evening

    The sun’s going down now, slowly, softly, and part of me thinks I should go downstairs and chop some kindling and make a springtime fire, but really what I’ll probably do is shiver slightly as the clouds rush overhead and drink another cup of tea in my yoga pants and oversize Auahi Kore shirt I…

  • Thursday Night In Spring

    Of course in the Northern Hemisphere Guy Fawkes Day would be cold and dark and autumnal: brief glares on a freezing November evening, actual bonfires, something warming in a hip flask perhaps. In your city, it’s cold and dark too, when you finally decide that oh fine, it’s just once a year, and suit up…

  • At The Pride And Prejudice And Zombies Ball

    My first response, when invited to a Pride And Prejudice And Zombies ball for Halloween was to sigh heavily and to dream of a beautiful white Regency dress my friend Anna made me around 2002, I think. I have no idea where this dress is: I know I put it in storage three years ago,…

  • Not Quite Spring, Not Quite Saturday

    You thought, somehow, that when you got back to Wellington it would be warm, like spring, or spring-like in nature, and that you would be able to wear some of your adorable new mass-produced American clothes. You have been able to, actually, now that you think about it you’ve been wearing those clothes all week:…

  • The First Holiday

    I’m pretty well over my jet lag, now, thanks for asking, and I have very much enjoyed my long Labour Weekend back in Wellington, after only 24 hours in transit from Miami the other day. I’ve clicked right into being here, after the initial weirdness and when people have asked me how it was being…

  • Short Duration

    I meant to go for a beach walk today but the tide was too high and the sand was trashy with sargassum and the wind was too windy. I spent the rest of the day shopping with my mom, eating Sir Pizza, petting the cats and packing for my flight back to New Zealand tomorrow.…

  • As Long As I Stay

    My sister’s wedding was a lot of fun. Her friend made the wedding cake (with an alleged thirty-two pounds of frosting), his brother did all the food, I wore my pinkest and fluffiest dress with my matching pink flip-flops, and we took a walk to the beach as the sun went down, dodging jellyfish as…

  • Home Again

    I’m just waiting for my yoga pants to come out of the dryer and I’ll be all packed up—my huge orange suitcase is only half full (including presents!) because I plan to do a lot of shopping while I’m in the States. My flatmate got me a carrot cake to have after dinner tonight and…

  • Up To Speed

    Ten years ago: I moved to Seattle from Southern California to start my master’s in social work degree, laboring under rather severe delusions of desiring to change the world, or something. I lived in a basement room in a funny little neighborhood (down the street from Thai of Wedgwood and Grateful Bread in a house…

  • Or Something

    It goes like this: early alarm, head under the pillow, quick shower where I forget to shave my legs again. Down the stairs, down the street, onto the bus, and eight hours in the office: scribbling on Post-Its, staring at the computer, going to meeting, getting a third cup of tea. Bus again, at least…

  • Antipodean Quotidian

    I guess we were talking about it at work, somehow, during afternoon tea at 3:30 on a Friday when there hasn’t been much on except, like, writing email and reading policy papers and wandering around the office, counting the hours. One of us had some popcorn and I had some biscuits and someone else had…

  • All The Goodbyes That Await You

    The days are going by and it’s light in the mornings now when you yawn and stumble to the bus stop, and according to the tuis outside your window it’s starting to be spring, and the long strange dull winter is almost over now, even if it isn’t quite sundress and jandal time. Time stops…

  • Another Good Wellington Weekend

    I really dithered around about what to wear Friday night; I haven’t been out dancing in ages and it was cold and rainy and I don’t have any good shoes, and all things considered the short blue dress and the knee-high boots with tights was a mistake. It was a moderately cute outfit—in fact when…

  • Excuses

    I don’t want to write: I just want to read books and drink tea and sit in front of the fire. I don’t want to write: I get home so late these days. I don’t want to write: everything I want to say someone else has already said. I don’t want to write: everything I…

  • Gossip

    Crack the top of the crème brulee and get right into it, spooning up the cream and dropping your voices. Well I try not to judge, you say, raising your eyebrows. I always thought there was something off, you murmur, dipping your spoon again. It’s not how I like to do things, of course, but…

  • Thinking Of You

    After work she decides not to go to the store because it’s windy and dark and a little colder than she’d expected this morning when she decided to wear her spring jacket instead of her winter coat. Earbuds, bus stop, off at the dairy and a quick walk along the street that looks over the…

  • Matiu/Somes Island

    We’re at an intriguing meteorological stage, right now in Wellington: it’s still sort of officially winter in that it can be cold at night and one wants at least two blankets on the bed, but the birds have been singing and the flowers have been blooming and everyone is waking up a little bit from…

  • Second Guessing

    This past Sunday I went for breakfast over at Scopa with an internet acquaintaince with whom I’ve been in touch for a couple of years, off and on. We’d already become Facebook friends and started following each other on Twitter so I was faaaaaaairly sure we were going to get on just fine, but even…

  • Day By Day

    Monday I made some lentil soup with carrots, onions, a whole thing of tomato paste and some leftover frozen corn when I got home from work. I would have liked to put in some celery but celery was SEVEN DOLLARS at Moore Wilson and I was too tired and cold to go over to New…

  • Sleeping In

    Wake up, finally, because the morning light—well, the mid morning light— got in through the curtains. At first you thought your phone was going off on your bedside table but really it was the birds outside in the trees, singing, singing, making you believe the long cold wet winter is almost over and that one…

  • Hospitality

    I had some girls from my work over for dinner last night, which was a pretty big deal for me on several levels: Monday night after a long and hectic weekend wherein no laundry was done whatsoever; not sure what to cook; people that I’m still getting to know and whom I will have to…

  • Various Fun Reasons

    Whoo, girl, I really should be in bed right now, snuggled up to my hot water bottle(s) but I always feel a little funny when I leave a super emo post up for more than a couple of days, you know, like it all gets a bit dire with all the big questions and vague…

  • Returned To Sender

    I can’t help wondering: what happens to the love, the kind that never gets to the people it was so earnestly meant for? Sometimes there’s a reason and sometimes there isn’t: they weren’t paying attention or they didn’t understand what would be required, or they just plain weren’t interested, they just plain didn’t want it,…

  • Sunny Weekend

    I don’t know about you, but I had a really nice weekend. It was full of pretty people and cute dresses and an interesting documentary and journal-writing at Fidel’s and lazy pajama-based mornings and a hubristic party and good talks and yummy hot chocolates and delightful cupcakes and a walk on the beach at Lyall…

  • Hibernating

    Two pairs of socks, in the mornings; a singlet top, merino jersey, fuzzy-collar zip-up sweater and a coat. Scarf and a very cute hat that always gets me compliments, and sometimes the orange chenille gloves I think I got at the Greenlake PCC nine billion years ago. Tights and boots. Three duvets on the bed…

  • Projecting An Image

    Last night I went to a party with some really pretty people and I wanted to step things up a bit, outfit-wise, so I wore a short (for me) flowy blue dress with my knee-high boots, over tights and a merino. This constitutes stepping it up, for me. I even put on some lip gloss…

  • Relaxating

    Well, it was Alice’s birthday, and as you know when it’s your birthday you get to do whatever you want, and what she wanted was for her and me to go down to Hanmer Springs in the South Island and go to the spa there for a weekend. I am a good and true and…

  • Psychic iPod

    Rama, my beautiful friend from high school whom I’m pretty sure I haven’t seen since the mid-nineties, is not only a stunning artist but also a person with big ideas, like big ideas. I go through all the illustrations in his portfolio every couple of months to see what he’s been thinking about lately, and…

  • Another Wellington Weekend

    By Friday afternoon I was pretty well done with a rather exhausted week, so it was as much as I could do to meet Alice for post-work hot chocolates at the library. After one of those supremely satisfying conversations that go like this: Chiara: And THEN what happened? Alice: Well. You know. Chiara: So does…

  • Maybe Next Time

    I wanted to write a story about hanging around, about sitting around, about walking around. I wanted to write a story about the stars and the sky and the moon and the trees, and everyone who lived in all of those places. I wanted to write a story about the deep blue sea. I wanted…

  • Skills

    Community transmission of contagious disease being what it is, I’ve been back working on Operation Swine this last week and a half, and I am so totally OVER IT, man Most people at work have been on this thing for like eight weeks now and everyone’s tired and everyone’s tense and everyone has the little…

  • Festa

    My friend Giulia has been back in Wellington for a couple of months now, but she’s waited until now to have her first party of 2009. She gives great parties, this girl—she cooks for a week beforehand and pretty much every Italian in town shows up. We’ve been talking about it since she got back,…

  • Wish

    I don’t know what’s going on lately, what’s in the air or in the water, but it’s been a little bit of a rough couple of weeks in my world. Not for me personally, you understand: I’m doing great. Work is settling down, I have some great friends, and I managed to light the fire…

  • Dilemma

    I paid off four months of my student loan the other day, which leaves me roughly two hundred and forty more months to go. My debt is pretty serious, by Kiwi (and, coincidentally, my own!) standards, and paying American loans with New Zealand money is not for the faint of heart, nor for those who…

  • FIRE!

    It’s still rainy and cold and windy and awful here in Wellington today. I opened my bedroom window a couple of hours ago, just to air it out a bit, and when I came back in? There was hail on my pillows. Okay? Okay. So I haven’t really done much with my long weekend so…

  • Come On Baby

    As we speak I am wrapped in a doubled up blanket, underneath which I’m wearing yoga pants, two pairs of socks, a shirt, a fleece, and a hoodie (hood up). I’d be adding gloves if I weren’t attempting to type, but am still seriously considering a scarf. My fingers and toes are honestly numb right…

  • Residency, At Last

    My New Zealand residency came in the mail on Friday, just like that. It’s in my passport along with my visa stamps from Australian and Fiji and Rarotonga and a truly horrifying passport photo that makes me look like a well-meaning glasses-wearing emu. All the forms have been filled out and all the fees have…

  • Perspective

    The flip side to having the house all to yourself for the evening is that there’s no one to show you how to build a fire in the woodburner so you have to put the electric heater on anyway. The flip side to a cold and wet and rainy and windy Saturday afternoon is that…

  • The Dance Floor Of My Dreams

    The dance floor of my dreams is big enough to give you plenty of room to show off your moves, small enough so that you don’t lose your friends in the crowd, fully wheelchair accessible, and expertly lighted in such a way to bring out your cheekbones. No one’s going to steal your purse, no…