So, she said, do you have a question? and had me cut the cards. I don’t really believe in this stuff and I wasn’t really sure what I was doing there so I was having a hard time not making a face at her.
I’m going to New Zealand in a couple of weeks, I said, somewhat reservedly. I am curious about what that will be like.
She arranged the cards in the shape of a Celtic cross (I’m Scottish and Cornish and Irish, she said, so that’s a tribal thing for me) and I couldn’t really understand what she was saying as she pointed to each one. Something about knowing. Something about logic. Something about a tower and all hell breaking loose in the subconscious. Wellington, she said, will be very good for you, very good for your writing. You’re going to learn to write there, learn to find the center of your writing. But it will be challenging. The first seven months especially. How long will you be there? Can you stay longer than a year? Because after seven months it will be much better and easier for you.
Do you have Scorpio in your chart? she asked. I don’t know what that means, I said, but I’m a Pisces.
Water sign, she said. Water flows, water finds a way. Water goes around or under or over or through the obstacles in its path. You will need to find the flow, find the way.
Hmm, I thought, remembering how easy it was to switch from wanting to go to London to wanting to go to New Zealand. I mentioned how my plans had changed and she sat straight up in her chair. And New Zealand, she said with a big smile, was like a colony of England and you write in English and it all makes sense. I raised my eyebrows a little: it didn’t make much sense to me, actually.
This is the courage card, she said, turning back to the deck, flipping it over and setting it down. You will need all your courage. But! You are completely equipped! You are there, in that space. Courage is going to be very important for you, so make sure you use it all you can.
I leaned back in my chair. A couple of months ago, I said, I custom ordered a necklace. It’s, like, a classic flash tattoo image of a swallow, flying with a banner and a flower. You can get anything you want on the banner, a name or whatever. I asked them to put COURAGE on mine. I am going to wear it on the plane the day I leave.
See? she said. See?